Something I have learned to understand and acknowledge about myself over the past few years is; being active in any form and enjoying the outdoors is an inherent part of my personality. It is essential to my inner peace and happiness.
Growing up on the grounds of a school, there was so much green space on our doorstep, and it was all of ours! We spent the majority of our childhood outdoors, rambling through woods, climbing trees, making tree houses/hang out spots, down by the river, running barefoot. I played a large amount of sport from the ages of 7-18,but once I left School it dropped off. I lost this part of myself in my mid 20’s, and I was unhappy.
These last 6 years I have fully reclaimed that back. I know I am at my best when I move. If I stay indoors an entire weekend,my soul winces, I am a grumpy bitch!. Even if I manage a short pilgrimage down the road for groceries, a big sigh of contentment comes over me. I have been oudoors, rejoice!
I am at my current gym about 2 years now. I have never taken on a specific challenge. I show up, work through the programmes and have been content with that, I love it. Recently a large number of the members have taken up 12 week challenges, but I didn’t sign up. Every morning I go, I see them pushing themselves, reaching new goals and targets, there is such a buzz of ‘can do, will do’, smiles and energy. I decided with my new mindset change, that I too wanted to challenge myself and train for a specific goal. I chose fitness as the first area to challenge myself in, as it’s one of the parts of my life I feel most comfortable in. I figured it was a good place to start, as it’s something I enjoy. I had always shied away from setting a goal at the gym. I guess because I carried this belief around that I wasn’t good enough to not fail, and didn’t want to risk the possibility of doing just that. This is where I need to work and change that pattern of thought.
I am committing to a tactical strength challenge. I spoke with my coaches and my new training program has now started. The challenge consists of max kettlebell snatches in 5 minutes, max deadlift and max pull ups. I am just over 2 weeks in, and I am really enjoying it, that focus is energising. My paws are a bit torn up, but I am determined to do this. I have already had some old thought patterns come up, on one of the days when training didn’t go so well, these are the opportunities I need to take to change and push myself to leave that negative voice behind, springing forward with the focus and energy of a champ. I look forward to betting on myself, and doing this with confidence and inner strength. It’s my first challenge and I’m ready !
Sunday morning practice 🙂
A journey of self help and love 